Time to get back into it

Well well! Didn’t know if I would actually write a blog post again.  I got struck down with bit of “writers block” . . . well ok it was a major writers block but also I think I felt that the overcoming of obstacles, shock and coming to terms of that bumpy first year of motherhood, I had gotten through it and just didn’t know what else to say.  But come on really a journey of motherhood never ends, journey of life never ends!  I just got a bit confused on where I wanted to go with my blog.

2017 was a tough one personally, I got a bit lost in a cloud of fog that I didn’t know how to get out of.  Looking back I wasn’t putting in the time to make sure I was ok.  Sure I would get time out from Chloe to get a bit of pampering done or chores done without my little sidekick “helping” but I wasn’t actually putting in that time to make sure I was mentally happy.  Doing the stuff that makes me happy, feel alive, challenge and make me grow as a person.  The fact that last summer was a cold wet one definitely didn’t help, I need sunshine.   So after coming back our big holiday to the UK, which was amazing but unfortunately with Chloe did getting really sick and her taking many months to get healthy again, that all lead me being physically and emotionally drained.  Luckily this Summer arrived early and boy did it make up for not turning up the previous year.

What started to happen was that I was getting my Vitamin D fix in big doses, exercising outside and gardening most days which made me feel alive again.  And guess what the effects of all this sunny hot summery days resulted in I started to feel happy again, the brain fog lifted and was getting more optimistic and motivated again.  My thought process started to work better and my acceptance of the rollercoaster of life made more sense again.  There was also one other major thing that made me see the light again, I knew that Chloe was starting Kindy in the New Year.  The light of end of tunnel was within my grasp.

So Chloe has been at Kindy since the end of January and boy is it amazing for both of us.  Twice a week she gets her socialising and learning needs meet, absolutely loves the place.  And I get the all important time for me, which normally means a 1 and half hour walk outside with my own thoughts.  During these walks what has happened is that I’ve been thinking alot about I want to accomplish this year . . . Never been one to really set goals but this year I’m dedicating 2018 to me!  Yes of course Chloe and Laurie are always my main concerns but it’s time to put a decent amount of my time aside for me.  And that’s what my blog is going to be more about now.  There will be updates on Chloe but there will be mainly my thoughts and experiences of what I have learnt about myself.  The goals I have set aside for myself this year are a bit scary and out of my comfort zone but also unbelievably exciting.