A question of been asking myself since High School. Many ideas and options have popped up since then but nothing that has really stuck or sparked the drive in me to know that is what I want to do. Some people know it when they are at school, some give a few careers ago until working it out and then other spend the whole life searching for it.
When I was in High School I wanted to be a Interior Designer, I loved dreaming up different interiors and try to fit in as many Art subjects as possible. After a bit of a bit of an emotionally rough year in my last year of High School and just losing motivation I decided I needed a break from studying . . . just for a year I said to my parents. My parents obviously knew better and told me that once I started earning money I wouldn’t go back to studying . . . and of course were they right. But I don’t regret my decision, I didn’t know what I wanted to do so it just would of been a waste of money.
Luckily I got a job in a big office environment which gave me great experience and taught me lots of skills that no schooling could ever teach me. I learnt quickly on the job and had the work satisfaction of doing something well. For while there I thought of doing some accounting papers . . . nope!!!! Boring! None of it made sense to me. So I continued working Credit Control but knew that I wasn’t going to progress any further than that.
When I moved down to New Plymouth, I thought OK a new start and a chance to start something new. But what do you know! I got offered a Credit Managers position, obviously the universe didn’t think I was ready for a new career. Now during that period of settling into New Plymouth I did think about making my obsession of Pilates my career, which I did almost for a year but along with working full time I just found it to draining on my energy levels. Again I realised that while I love Pilates, that instructing was not what I wanted to be putting my energy into. But what from that experience I did learn that I wanted to help people . . . in what way I still didn’t know.
Well then came the whole marriage, getting pregnant and adjusting to parenthood thing happened. I knew that’s what I just had to focus on for the time being. Then when it came to Chloe starting Kindy I had time to focus on my own thoughts really think about what I wanted to do. The guilts of wanting to start contributing to our mortgage and bills again made me ask what direction I wanted to go. The things I do know were that I no longer wanted to work in Credit Control, needed flexibility with Chloe’s health being unpredictable so ideally need to be my own boss and that I wanted to do something that helped people in someway. So I started to ask myself what did I really enjoy doing, what makes me feel good and happy, what would I like to learn more about . . . then the idea came quite quickly and I don’t know why I had never thought about it before. So I started my research to find training and course that would suit me. Hopefully I get to start it within the next couple of weeks. It’s exciting, a little scary as I have never been a good student but for the first time this is something I REALLY want to do and it excites me. So keep a eye out and I will let you all know what it is very soon.